It’s been two days since I posted that last, most exuberant announcement, regarding the Creative Upsurge I so enjoyed for a time. Rest assured that the Upsurge has all but desurgified, and that there have been no creative juices flowing per se except for a few nagging senses of a paralyzing insistence on performing multiple instances of pure perfectionism. Specifically, I continue to get the sense that everything is at a standstill until I correct these relatively random musical errors in my already submitted work. Not the emphasis on the word “submitted.”
It is of relevance to me that the work I must now be so laboriously readjusted is work that I have already released via social media as well as a few very vociferous email blasts. On checking my rarely visited SoundCloud, I find I’ve gotten 15 hits in the past twenty-four hours – the norm usually being zero. So people are eagerly soaking in this prematurely released version of my work. This has me uneasy, and just as eager to get the new reincarnations of these pieces into their possession. But that runs counter to sound creative doctrine. Best I relax, and get it turned in at its natural rate; say, around this coming Saturday or so (today being Monday.)
This will however virtually necessitate that I once again do not venture upon untraveled textual terrain, such as attempting to complete a script or libretto or lyric set, or anything along non-musical lines that may be related to any of my projects. I cannot so venture, because my absorption in the musical aspect of everything is so exclusive. I need to see myself through this travail, musically speaking, before anything is considered in any other area of life.