Somebody said something to me yesterday that struck a major chord within me.
“Forgiveness isn’t between you and the person you’re trying to forgive. Forgiveness is between you and God.”
I stared at her for a moment, half humiliated, half disgusted.
“I knew you were going to say that.”
Of course, it’s true. The only drawback is, now I have to forgive God, too. I have to forgive God for making it so hard to forgive that other guy. But looking at the bright side, let’s consider what I need to forgive the other guy for.
In case you haven’t been following my last few posts, the man in question basically pulled a hit-and-run. He hit me – then he ran. As far as the actual hit, I can roll with that punch. It’s the run I have to forgive him for. He abandoned me. He ditched me. He forsook me. But will God forsake me? Will God run?
Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” – Hebrews 13:5 ESV
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. – Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV
No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life; as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you.– Joshua 1:5 NKJV
There you have it! He said it at least three times – (in three different translations, even.) That Guy will not forsake me. So why not start looking to God for my forgiveness needs, not to people? If I’m mad at Whats-His-Name, be mad at God instead. If What’s-His-Name won’t help me to forgive What’s-His-Name, then turn to God to help me to forgive What’s-His-Name. If What’s-His-Name won’t help me remove my Writer’s Block – then maybe God will.
In fact, that’s it! I need to ask God to remove my Writer’s Block! Not whoever that other guy is. In fact, it’s not important who he is. What’s important is what he represents.
No one having offended me and left me with a Writer’s Block would have the power to remove the block by ceasing to offend me. Moreover, it is not possible for me through my human powers alone to persuade somebody to stop offending me. This is all just some game I’ve been playing at a deep unconscious level, blaming some other guy for my Writer’s Block. That block is not going to be removed until God Himself removes it. So all I need to do is to start praying for God to remove my block. Then, when the time comes – and not a moment before – the maddening three-year-old Writer’s Block will at last be removed.
Then, and only then, will I be to finally finish this script! Why didn’t I think of this earlier? I’ll get on it right away. Praying right now — even as we speak.