There are mornings when I awake without any sense of inspiration whatsoever. Nothing inspires me. Nothing thrills me. Nothing moves me — I find no sense of joy or purpose in my heart. Sometimes on such mornings I struggle for three or more hours with the notion that life is meaningless, that everything is vain and pointless — that there is no better end for me than to take each day’s evil as it comes, praying for the best but expecting the worst, and so trudge the tumultuous trail of trial after trial till the travesty of such tragic tribulation trickles into death.
How I thank the Lord above that this morning was not such a morning! As I woke, I registered that I had been dreaming song lyrics in my mind, to one of the tunes I’d written while I was still wandering wistfully about the dangerous streets of Berkeley— a tune I’d only barely begun to sequence in my new and much more palatable place of pleasure, poise, and purpose, the providential paradise I now am proud to call my home. Though the phone rang immediately, sidetracking me suddenly from the sweetness of my song, I was nonetheless thrilled to find my dearest daughter Echo on the other end of the line, equally inspired — though she, unlike her father, is forever inspired, even on her bad days. As her dad, needless to say, this makes me glad.
Although the Internet was down where I consumed my morning coffee, I thank God all the more so. For before I’d downed a single cup, five offline files were at once thrown open before my eyes, as though competing for the privilege of my sole creative fury — as if to see which one would lend the greatest inspiration to my heart. Lo and behold, there has emerged a victor:
The Very Same World
Copyright © 2016 by Andrew Michael Pope
All Rights Reserved.
At last, the formerly unfinished lyrics flow so finely, I’ve no doubt in my mind I will have sung this song with my own voice, and added my own singing to that instrumental track – ere sundown, I would wager, if I were a gambling man – or my name’s not Andy Pope.
And yet, alas – I seem to have forgotten that sunset is at 4:30 in this part of the world. But even in this embarrassing peccadillo do I thank the Lord above. Thank God I’m not a gambling man, for I have not lost the bet.
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While the first paragraph touches me in ways I can’t describe because it sounds so much like how I feel almost every single day, the rest of the entry makes me smile. I am so happy to hear you woke up hearing music. I am at work right now and have a lot to accomplish today, but I wanted to read what I could before I had to buckle down for the rest of the day. K. has surgery tomorrow, so I will hopefully find myself near a computer Thursday where I can devote myself to your pieces. In other words, please stand by!
Standing by, Kathoppa! Thanks so much for your support.