I cut yet another version of this today. I didn’t exactly work all day, but almost. At one point I took a walk out to the Arboretum, just because everybody says to do so. There, it was very pretty. Shortly later, however, I came back, and resumed work.
I finished this a little past 3:24 of what is in reality a 4:40 piece. However, I faded it at around 3:02, just like its predecessor, because there’s a natural fade there where it won’t be anticlimactic.
I’ve been feeling angry over an attitude I’m getting from some people who knew me when I was in entirely different circumstances. These sorts of people don’t seem to understand that their ongoing attitude is unacceptable to me. By and large, they never actually listen to my music or appreciate the prodigy invested in it. All they do is notice that there are no vocals, and say something to the effect of: “My time is more important than this. I’ll listen to this once you have the singing on it.” In so doing, they completely overlook all the detailed scoring of instrumental parts I put into this effort. It’s extremely condescending, and I’m not sure why I put up with it.
I’m strongly compelled to equate this attitude with a “California attitude” that many people in other States find puzzling. However, it’s more likely that I myself was caught up in that syndrome when I lived there, and I can just thank God to have escaped it. Besides, another friend of mine, also from California, listened to this song from a sincere heart, without scoffing at me or dismissing me as though not worth his time. Not only him, but his wife and twenty-year-old daughter also appreciated my work. I could tell that their appreciation was genuine; then my friend also followed me on my SoundCloud.
This is a good thing. I’ll take the good with the bad, as my dad always used to say. I don’t know why I get hung up trying to please everybody. The truth is that I don’t have the female singers yet. I also don’t have the exact accompaniment down yet, to be heard by the singers, and support them. This, what you’re hearing today, comes close. What I’m hoping is that I can overlook the cynical voice of opposition enough to keep moving forward. My hope for the week is simply this. I would like for the much-needed singers to emerge at around about the time I’m finished with this instrumental accompaniment. In any case, it makes no sense to drop the accompaniment as a project and look full-force for the singers, if when I find them, I don’t have a complete accompaniment for their use.