Q. Where are you coming from?
A. A place of extreme excess.
Q. What do you mean?
A. I’m extremely excessive.
Q. How so?
A. Well, for one thing, I talk too much.
Q. But aren’t you an Introvert?
A. That I am.
Q. But aren’t most Introverts very quiet people?
A. Probably. I’ve met a few others who are pretty chatty, though.
Q. Do you find those people to be extremely excessive?
A. No, not really.
Q. Then why do you think of you yourself as such?
A. Well, it’s not just that I talk too much.
Q. What else do you do?
A. I don’t think before I speak.
Q. Do you speak too soon?
A. Yes. And often, there are consequences.
Q. What kinds of consequences?
A. I wind up annoying people. Being in a leadership position, I give instructions that somebody begins to act upon, and later I realize the instructions were incorrect, and I alter the instructions after the fact, expecting them to switch gears and act upon them. Very poor leadership, on my part.
Q. So you’re saying that you “jump the gun?”
Q. Has anyone conveyed to you that they are annoyed with you?
A. No – not exactly . . .
Q. Why do you think this is?
A. Well obviously, they’re too polite to tell me, and they’re afraid of hurting my feelings.
Q. But you are convinced that they are annoyed with you?
Q. What does it matter what they think?
A. Oh I don’t know. I guess it doesn’t matter what they think, so much as it matters whether or not I do the right thing.
Q. And what is the right thing?
A. I’ve already told you! I need to stop talking so much, and I need to think before I speak. But that’s not all.
Q. What else is there?
A. Sometimes when I get super-stressed, I deliver a message to the wrong recipients. A message that is supposed to go to say, a therapist or counselor, somehow goes to one of the people who is working for me.
Q. So you dump on them?
A. You might say so.
Q. Now what do all these things have in common?
A. Impatience. I am too impatient. Maybe not the talking too much — but the jumping the gun, and the need to vent — it all points to a spiritual problem. I must be more patient.
Q. Can you now begin to do so?
A. Only if I trust God for the results. I tend not to do that. I don’t trust that the Universe is going to unfold as it should — if only I get out of its way. Rather, I think that I have to do everything myself.
Q. Where does that come from?
A. Lack of faith.
Q. So you need more patience and you need more faith?
A. It would seem so, yes.
Q. Seem so?
A. Things are not always what they seem.
Q. What do you mean?
A. I already have faith. I already have patience. These are fruits of the Spirit. And I already have the Spirit. Faith, patience, love, joy, peace — these are all in me. They’re inbred in our Divine Design. I just need to exercise them — to practice them.
Q. Are you perfect? Doesn’t everybody make mistakes?
A. But Jesus said: “Be therefore perfect – even as your Father in Heaven is perfect.”
Q. Why do you think he said that?
A. He wanted to inspire us to the highest possible standard.
Q. Has anyone ever achieved the highest possible standard?
A. Only one man has done so, in my opinion.
Q. So if only Jesus has achieved the highest possible standard — in your opinion — why are you so hard on yourself?
A. I don’t know. It just seems that — nobody has ever accomplished anything truly great by going easy on themselves.
The Questioner is silent.
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